Blessings, Dad...I love you

"Nothing can make up for the absence of someone whom we love, and it would be wrong to find a substitute. We must simply hold out and see it through. That sounds very hard at first, but at the same time it is a great consolation. For the gap, as long as it remains unfilled, perserves the bonds between us...The dearer and richer our memories, the more difficult the separation.

"But gratitude changes the pangs of memory into transquil joy. The beauties of the past are borne, not as a thorn in the flesh, but as a precious gift in themselves...In this way the past gives us lasting joy and strength."--Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Dad & Mom

This past year flew by faster than any other I remember. It's mind boggling really. I'm certain I spent more time in the bathtub than on dry land and from that very first day after my dad's death water has been my escape. My escape wasn't so much about getting away from, but instead, escape into the solace, comfort, and reflection that's held me through a year of bereavement and healing.

There have been moments throughout the year when I've felt closer to my father than ever before. There also were a few times when I felt his presence and love wrap around me like a quilt. Those moments were so comforting and they came when I needed them the most. I'm deeply, deeply grateful to my dad for his love...a love he continues to send, a love I cherish more and more over the passing of time, and a love, his love, that never dies.

Today I'll light a candle and say a soft blessing...for Dad...for Mom...for us all
and I'll send my love back to him on the golden rays of candlelight.